星星

夜晚的星空

这里一闪， 那里亮

数兆的星火

你们

在与谁争艳？

万里长空

东一个，西一颗

试问

思念的感觉是如何？

你光年里穿梭

我却停留在

某年某月某日

的那一时刻

我掠了你的幻影一把

一起停留在那个时空

你，不在意吧？

抬头瞄一瞄

偷窥你在亿年前

对这荒野的地球

回眸一笑

我深深地吸了一口冬天的寒风

然后

呼。。。。。。

犹如特效的一口烟霾，

朦胧了月光

我又在地球的某个角落

空虚的 独自

仰慕着你

还有那荒野外

的星群

小明

How to be YOUNG?

Someone please tell me how to LOOK and SOUND younger. Not asking for advice on how to become more childish, but how to be YOUNGER.

My physical appearance? My speech? My actions? My facial expression? My wearing? What else? And How?

FAST FAST gimme suggestions on how to become a YOUNGER-21-year-old. Fast lar! Haiyo..

Feeling, Lost.

万千灯火燃深夜;天未拂晓，奈何情火早已熄灭,
一阵狂风黎明吹;地已觉醒，唯有枫香悠久依在.

上半句为小明之作，下半句为家盛友人配的下联


Now I understand why,
my feeling is just not right.

It's hard to explain to you,
why I have to be a clown forever
and why I can never be your twilight

And I have just realized,
you have had too much joy, love and fun,
which I can promise you none,
and in fact, I fear I can never ever give you one.

Like in the case that,
I'm a self-proclaim Christian;
superficial faith is not in sight,
not even one tiny single bit;
but deep inside my heart,
Christ is my savior and my guide.
Perhaps I should just forget it
turn around and walk away
as if I've never came across your smile
and demeanor;

but far beyond my self-control,
there is one thing,
and only one-
which is my Feeling,
-that will never sway an inch away from you,
since the very beginning of time.


Xiao Ming

无题

无限的想象，要是我活在巴洛克时代。。。
I'm in love with J.S Bach.

夜雨

海风强力一刮

呼*呼*呼

打在这四面围墙
乘着顺风车的雨点
也不经意的
泼在无眠的玻璃窗

来吧一串串的水珠
为我串出黑白幻灯片
把小时候
被雨声盖过的抽泣
或是
在沟渠旁折纸船的欢笑
暂时还给我
就这一夜吧

儿时在屋檐旁
望着漆黑的下雨
闪电 雷声 此起彼落
我在发呆着
听着 青蛙 和下雨
在不断的对唱

而我当今
依然在寻觅
那些年 的天真
无顾虑的 优哉

不知北部沙滩
的海水
是不是在咆哮

呼*呼*呼

狂风夜雨 围堵了
西海岸
和我沉思的 漫漫长路


小明

(End of the dry spell in WA :-) )

思念

好久没有时间去想你了，但是大考要到了，有点乱了阵脚；心，慌了，乱了，又忆起你的婀娜，又坠入了你的无底的陷阱。

有时候
翻一翻你
的网上相簿

发现到 你
长得越来越 漂亮
成熟
我悄悄地，对着你
微笑了

离开你越远
你的世界
似乎变得更完整
完美

但，我的
心
偶尔还是会
隐隐作痛

思
还是一样
伤神难受

念
只有一个
你天使般
的那张脸孔



小明

Tagged

Tagged by Dowie Ying , on 'your three favorite albums'.
Have no idea who to tag, so I wont be taggin' anyone today.. hehe
I will start this tag with Kitaro...


This is the first album my dad bought me when i was in standard 5 primary school. Kitaro's musics are the sound from heaven, my dad said. However, during the music lesson at school, my music teacher then, played the music video of kitaro for us to watch. I got chased out from the class because I told 王竞德老师 that Kitaro looks like a beggar. Yea, he looks like one... haha
I still like it alot, it was in cassette by the time.:) I got a few strokes at my backside from him as well, in same year. LOL


'A Rush of blood to the head' is the best album I ever had. By the band COLDPLAY which released their latest hits Viva la Vida, this album was released about 8 years ago. I bought one in batu ferringhi for 6 ringgit, original or pirated one, i dont know :P
It is by far the ONLY band that produces wonderful songs and music ALL THE TIME. It's not like only one or two songs in an album are nice, its ALL songs in ALL albums of Coldplay are nice. Still, I prefer A Rush of Blood To The Head.


Enrique Iglesias is my favorite english Single. In terms of Single, he produces most of the best songs in this album, Escape. Among the songs are Hero, Escape, and his older songs, Bai La mor. Superb!

For Chinese Singles, I would vote for Jay Chou and Wu Bai. :):)



xiaoming

Double Pass to "My Year Without Sex"

Yup. Two movie passes to the MYWS were sent to where I stay today, thanks to Nuffnang! Muacks! Nuffnang Muacks!

Nuffnang? Muacks!

Yea, Nuffnang loves bloggers, and bloggers love Nuffnang. The only thing I dont understand about Nuffnang is why they have not yet advertise anything on my blogs, meaning I dont get to earn anything. But, who cares, I've got tix :P

The problem is, Two Passes. 2, Dua, 两个, Irnde, II.
TWO!
Who can I go with????
WHO?

Yea, no one.

Eh, Jerk258, wanna be my first date?

Boy and Boy watch this movie together? It just doesnt sound quite right. LoL



xiao ming

Practical Mom

I made it!

Wished my mom Happy MOther's day for the very first time in my life.

10th May 2009, I told my mom I loved her, the first time as well.


Well, the feeling is awesome :)


But, as usual, I know my mom very well.
She's the most practical mother on earth.

She replied me this:

DONT PLAY ANYMORE! LoL

Ok, dont play anymore.


Xiao Ming

勇气

谈勇气，我最不行。

从小到大，我有很多怕。我怕鬼，怕暗，怕狗，怕老师，什么都怕。
勇气？更不用讲。
很多事情我都没有勇气去做，去承担，去面对。
虽然做了很多“不要脸”的事，但这未必代表我很勇敢，很有勇气。

爸爸曾经好几次骂我没骨气，全都是因为我对自己的家人不曾说过“对不起”而引起的。
听起来很不寻常，有时父亲做错了一些小事，他都能低声下气的向孩子们道歉；但是，我这个堂堂男子汉，对家人几乎不曾认错过。即使知道自己犯了错，我只会选择与家人自我隔离，不说话一两天，过了几天后又和好如初了。

不过，这并不表示我不知错，不改过。我还有另一个倾向，那就是很容易感到内疚。
生过别人的气后，我很快就会觉得内疚。在这里骂了人家几天后，就开始觉得自己不懂的感恩，不能忍一忍别人的过失。

内疚的感觉很烂，但是，内疚却使我自我检讨，自我提醒。

讲到这里，是不是觉得我很小女孩脾气？

最近在电视的广告播映时，不小心听到了

“Have you told your mom you love her today?”

母亲节要到了。


但是，从小到大，又好像道歉这样，我，不曾告诉过家人，我爱他们。我爱我的妈妈，但是却不曾告诉过我爱她。凭着我在部落格匿名写东西，大概都可以猜到， 我很没有勇气。

父母时常告诉我，他们很爱我，而我也觉得很幸福；我就是没有那一份勇气说一句“我爱你”。
妈妈为我劳碌了这一半辈子，而她也特别疼我， 我想，她到底知不知道我爱她呢？过了整20个母亲节，孩子不曾用言语表达感谢和爱戴，妈妈会不会很伤心低落？

有人说狮子座的都不爱道歉，那有谁能解释不爱说“我爱你”的狮子呢？

和自己的母亲说声“我爱你”， 很难吗？

我没有勇气，没有气概， 会使我变得自私吗？


我还没有打算在母亲节写信回家，
我也不懂要写什么，要怎么写，
虽然看起来很没有诚意，
其实是我没有勇气，

但我还是想借用匿名的方便
很深切的说
"妈妈，我爱你。"

A Mother's Love

watch these videos...worth watching..

小明

Geh Gao

"Geh Gao" is a hokkien term that refers to someone who pretends to be a smart, while in fact, that person is not.


I'm being one Geh Gao person today (just for t0day only) because I ruined two of my coursemate's marks (only one mark lor..sorry lor...) by telling them the wrong answer for buffer calculation.

Hehe. Dont hit me, I know I'm kiam pak, but I didnt do it on purpose!

Feeling like a jerk, but what can I do?Isn't it cute? Hehe

Just like what Soo Chuen loved saying at me "Mai Luan lar, Lu Mai Gek Gao Gao lar!" (Shut up, dont be smart!)

Ok, time to shut up.

LoL


XiaoMing

走狗！

！·#￥%……—*（）——)(*&^^%$$#@@!!

哼！走狗！哼哼哼！走狗！




前天，。。。。。。


我第一次走狗！
(walk the dog)

哈哈。。。

一手拉着超大只的掺种的拉布拉多狗，一边慢跑着，感觉很不错。
看来，我来了这里后，对狗仔改观了许多。虽然还是有点怕狗，但是。。。 “走狗”的感觉太棒了！哈哈哈哈哈

其实不是我拉着他走，而是他把我拉着走！
才知道原来狗是很强的动物。。。

被拉着走的感觉， 也很不错！

难怪狗仔可以帮盲人带路。。。。


哈哈。。。


走狗！（Walk　Ｔｈｅ　Ｄｏｇ）！

:-) :-D

我的潜意识有问题吧。。。

最近一两天都还蛮好心情的。。

高兴！ :-)
希望这样的感觉能持久！

No worries Lostnoob, i'm fine! Thanks :D

麦田

在车子里面经历过了一个半小时的车程,头是有点重重的.刚从Serpentine Dam 往北部缓缓地向珀斯行使着,一边聆听水利工程师讲解水坝的构造,我的世界又开始脱轨于车外的诱惑.

"....水田下的破缝，就会由蛙人潜入照相，然后再回到水面报告。刚开始潜水下底，蛙人必须停在不同的水位，以适应突变的水压，然后再继续潜下所定的目的地。一旦潜下，被仪器侦察到的破缝，便会由蛙人的缝补技术......"

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双眼一半蒙蔽,窗外突然来了一闪闪金黄而刺眼的反射;眼皮很自然,轻轻地闭上,然后吃力的捕捉回那一煞那.

通往南北的小路上,我有感在田园里穿梭,走在正要入秋的黄麦边,我无目的地的走着,在没有边界的土地上孤独.

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远处只看见一架被我们追上的旧犁田机;虽然慢吞吞的,但在千万顷的黄麦中,它显然特别有姿态,毫不作响的溜过我的眼角边.留下的是一道长长的烟尘;好比吊人胃口的春梦,隐约的悬挂在半空.飞滚起来的黄土;又像是无形的城堡,把我和冥想困守起来了,我的魂魄,其实早已被遗留,在这里.

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我忆起了在"斗士"(THE GLADIATOR)里的罗马将军,在罗马帝国旺盛的时候,被王子妒忌而陷害;

最后战死古罗马圆形大剧场,

他的灵魂进入了另一个境界

他, 回到了他的家

他的家,盘坐在一片熟透的麦田中

他的家,有个妻子,头发如橄榄般乌黑

他的儿子,又像以前一样,

迫不及待冲向了爸爸

然而这一次的相遇,和以前不一样，

斗士这一回, 回到了家

也和被罗马士兵残杀的妻儿,相聚

在天堂......

在他的家....

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戏的剧情都是悲剧中的悲剧,唯有他的家,令我最难忘最怀念.

在麦田中的的一栋小板屋,　家.

天空暗了,今晚天气如何, 倘未知道;

玻璃境外的景色,也从那一片片金黄色的旷野

穿梭进了古罗马　N　年后的一个时代

高楼,大厦,

摩登,贵气,

但却不是一向来

最熟悉的　　家.

小明

无题

知觉告诉我
千万不要再妄想
不可能发生的事情
或是注定不会发生的

永远都不会实现。。。

醒来吧，振作一点！

传至远方，有一条信息

xxx have just sent you a nudge.

很简短的问候
来自越洋的短信
突然呈现在荧幕前
问我，“你好吗？”

古代游子
少小离家 老大归
一封家书抵万金
有时候梦见父母也算是有福气

电子时代
我离家， 我向梦想飞奔去
头前是个梦想
身子是个唯一的本钱
背着的是个包袱

家书是没有
天天看着电子邮报
担心家里有什么大事件
看着自己的国家被腐败的官僚
搞到很不安宁
看到都累了，
甚至有点想逃避

好久没见到你们了
我还好，别担心
你呢？

虽有时用电邮传话
偶尔收到短而贴心的几句“how are you?"
天气是冰冷的
但是心，还是暖暖的点燃着。。


小明

还有明天吗？

马来西亚，还有明天吗？

也许我可以问得婉转点，说些好话，娱人娱己。

但是，独立至今，人民都给国政瞒骗了50年，可能一代人都已经过去了；我想知道，

马来西亚人还有本钱再被耍下去吗？

中国被日本侵袭后勇敢的站起来，现在已经是经济强国；
日本被投下两颗原子弹后，成为亚洲先进国；
甚至是从前被瞧不起的越南，预测将在短短的5年内超越马来西亚。

我们的国家领袖在做些什么？

用纳税人的钱去旅游欧美迪士尼？
用2倍的公款购买过时军火？
煽动各族人民互相仇恨，以捞取选票？

贪污了可以不用被惩罚，那岂不是和第三世界的非洲独裁没两样？

人民以土族非土族等级来分，岂不是名副其实的种族隔离政策？

纳吉的父亲敦拉萨在69年后幕发动种族暴乱，
纳吉本身曾经三妻四妾，又丑闻缠身，
纳吉的太太利用马来西亚驻伦敦大使馆的公款，在国外疯狂购物。说要调查，又不了了之
他上台了，

政风会好转吗？
滥权贪污会被打击吗？

我早已厌倦了巫统霸道无理，
但我还很想问，在多24小时后，
马来西亚还有明天吗？　


我好累。。




小明

:-)

有时候，东西习惯了就好。

看看四周，欣赏大自然的美，
其实没什么是过不去的。

最重要，要懂得珍惜所拥有的一切。

:-D

夏天

Inspired by LFO - Summer Girl (1999)

来吧秋天
我不怕
最痛心的事
也只不过是一两天
的愁
你这一季的落叶
有什么了不起？

冬天的寒
和冻
扑向我的身体
侵袭和考验
测试我的耐力
微弱的心跳
却是强烈的信息
要告诉你
我还没放弃！

春的虚伪
美丽和骗局
早被看透了
一年之计在于春?
开什么玩笑
希望？憧憬？
少来这一套儿戏吧

听的是90年代的歌
哼着的是21世纪初期的曲
写的是8000年的文字
而我
此时此刻
只想念
上一季的夏天



小明

无题

凉凉的风吹又吹，把树木打得很吵杂， 意味着秋天将临；但我始终不断地在猜想，干嘛云朵现在才浮现呢？夏天的云呢？你来迟了！

我想多一阵要到海边去散散心，因为最近，心， 有点乱，可能是因为开始忙碌起来了；空闲时， 累了，心里却有问不完的迷惑，疑问。

希望时间能给我一个交代，至少能够安抚我，最近起落无常的心情。

想要好好休息一下脑子，暂时应该不会乱你们。哈哈。。


小明

落幕的木偶

我答应多自己不再回往旧事，不再低落和萎靡不振，我几乎做到了。但有时有些事情让我很beh tong,还是会有emo的时候。

感觉已呆滞
但生活
还是不断的
前进
上演着面无表情的
歌剧

不知道是好
还是坏
还是得为人们
在舞台上
被挥舞
舞台下
世人为我欢呼

而这僵硬的四肢
曾经有过炙热的心
却不停的
往着无底悬崖
跌落下去.

我献上的那一支舞蹈
是我求救的暗号
那首轻快的匈牙利民歌
是我木头身躯的嚎啕
每一步机械化的摆动
更是复活莎士比亚
的百年歌舞悲剧

空白的脑袋
还不能理解
过去和明天
要哭要笑
或生和死
上帝啊，
到底谁能还原我
感情酸甜苦辣
加上
一颗不停跳动的心？

在台下
正退潮的掌声
迎接了木偶谢幕的一面

我很绅士的一鞠躬
然后再到后台

悄悄地哭泣

小明

在地铁时

我在火车厢里的电动门旁，我看到了她。不是她，是很像她的女孩。
那把亚洲人的秀发，还有那有点儿发红的脸蛋儿；鼻梁上挂着一幅眼镜。

暗里吓了一跳，当时的错觉很厉害。心跳很自然的加速，不知道为什么。
我开始还真的以为是她，最后看多几眼，原来这妞子的眼睛较小。

你说你喜欢了别人，
我也很努力的尝试不去想你
直道了在地铁的那天，
我才发现到，
我还忘不了，你。

小明

华社。精神

华社在马来西亚，有种精神。它叫作“坚持”。

华教斗士，沈慕羽先生离开了他斗争的场地，

但却传承了不死的奋斗精神，给我们这一代，

他的坚持，使到我们今天有华文书读，

使到华社还能在这片土地上，骄傲的说，Ｉ　ａｍ　ａ　Ｍａｌａｙｓｉａｎ　Ｃｈｉｎｅｓｅ．


就是他，为了争取华社在马来西亚的平等地位，

拼搏了他的一生，

他说过

“华教尚未平等，同道仍须努力！”

沈慕羽（１９１３－２００９）

我相信啊。。我相信。　我们还需努力！
沈老先生，您放心，华文教育永远不会被打败，
祝你一路好走！





小明

500 dollars and 50cents

I passed a 500 dollars test yesterday

then I treated myself a 50 cents Mc Donald Sundae Cone.
I love their Sundae Cone here coz it has very strong MILK taste, plus, it's cheap > 50cents

I was lucky to have met Tony, the examiner from City West center.
If not I would not have passed so easily.

And if I really failed yesterday, I would really really cry for the examiner to see, for my 500 dollars.

And If really failed, then like what fren said, it would be KNS. KNS!

Feel like cubit-ing him now. Tony is so cute :)

damn i must be out of my mind.

Sorry I'm over excited now

writing also out of order



WOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO~~~~~

Failure

Well, I have to admit one thing.

I often FAIL in my life. Many things.

I fail in school exams, I fail to entertain people, I fail to earn more money, I fail to remember small things in my life, I fail to fulfill other people's wishes, MOST OF THE TIME.

But tell you what, I AM NO 100% FAILURE.
I do succeed in some areas, but of course, just very few of them.
Success comes with a price, and very often, successes are VERY EXPENSIVE.

To me, hard work is only sap sap water. The "really" "hard" thing is mental suffer. When you expect something to happen, you have hope. When you have hope, you'll get disappointed easily.

To suffer psychologically is very bad. You get bored easily. You'll lose direction in your life. The worst thing, YOU WILL EVENTUALLY DOUBT YOURSELF.

When you doubt yourself, GAME OVER. Bye bye. You'll dive into a bottomless sea and never get to the surface anymore.

But I always believe in one thing when coping with serious challenges:


"Prepare for the worst, and work the best out of yourself."


This theory keeps me running until tonight. Tomorrow? Dont know.


Please let meeeeee PASSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

I DONT WANNA FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

不怕破财消灾， 只怕没钱破财。T.T

我好在容易心软，坏在不够狠！显！

烟花

(26th January of each year is the Australian Day, in which on that day, people will celebrate with the spectacular Lotterywest Skyworks along the Swan River, a river mouth that connect to the Indian Ocean. Viewing it from condominiums from afar is an even better option! :))

大自然已经熄掉了
夏天的烈阳
自己的呼吸
与开始放缓节奏的大地
疏远 和相对

孤雁划过天鹅河畔的上空
留下了一道裂痕
但心中的 伤口
却随着海风的狂吹
而淡化了许多

我在等什么？
瞭望台的远处
倘有夕阳的残骸
另一边就已经
有细小的火苗
很急凑的
一颗一颗往上升

从一个不起眼的火种
飞奔到了珀斯的顶端
轰 轰 轰
耀眼的七彩火花
又再新一年的第二十六天
重燃人类的寄托
和希望

有人趁此许愿
有人趁此祷告
有人载歌载舞
有人醉酒熏天

唯有我
凝视着一道道
似从天河留下的
银色水帘

一颗颗
犹如生活里的彩色
和酸甜苦辣
的烟花

告诉自己：
这就是生活
有时暗淡
有时明亮

只要硬着头皮
拼一拼
总有一天
会像中国制造的烟火一样
琔放

哪管你是颗小小火苗
或是频临熄灭的温度

再来一次吧
让我们来忘了过去

再为明天的自己
奋斗， 照明
就像颗 火种 和 烟花



小明

团圆饭

这里的春节是热的
一整天温温的风
还有烈爆的太阳
想吃火锅又不是
但，
又懒得自己做年菜


我想起了公公的厨艺
一个堂堂男子汉
入得厨房
出来的菜色
我永远不会忘记

我爱吃他亲手做的肉卷
他独特炮制的咖喱竹笋
清炒杂菜
还有不能没有的潮州面条

饭后堂兄弟姐妹
在一起玩抓迷藏
伯伯姑姑们在圆桌上
谈上正经文教
这
也只不过是段
不再有的热闹

多少年了
没有上过学的公公
还是像以往这样
手中握着厚厚的书
一遍又一遍的读过

但谁也万万想不到
也看不出
他， 老了
公公老了
谁有回乡拜年 谁没有
他竟然也认不出了


当然，
现在不知道是谁在下厨
吃起来的那种滋味
完全无法取代
那双历尽整一个世纪的 手
在莲花炉上调味，爆炒出来的
团圆饭菜。




p.s: Grandpa, I miss you, I love you :) wish you another healthy and happy year!

小明

Tagged....Again

Erm... Kena tagged by Angel pula. Searched back my last "tagged" posting, wow, it was ages ago, and same people tagging me back! LoL

lets start this loong looongg loooooooooooooooong tag post!

1. The last person you tagged is?
Lee Chee Theng

2. Your 5 impression of him/her?
Smart and outstanding, a person that read a lot, have weird taste for songs like me(some songs), cool, a person with very special characteristics (Big fan of Leeds and Guinness)

3. The most memorable thing that he/she had ever done for you?
Erm.. He tried to send me a movie from Sarawak through MSN, but I had to go offline halfway :(

4. The most memorable word he/she ever spoke to you?
" Were you the goal keeper at school?"

5. If he/she becomes your lover, you will…
Erm... That's a scary idea

6. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will…
I dont have enemies

7. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on…
He has to go Thailand and perform somesort of surgery.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, it is because
He killed me? AHAHA

9. The most desirable thing for him/her to do is
To go watch Leeds Utd games with Guinness on his hand. Maybe.

10. Overall impression towards him/her is
A very special guy.

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
Weird(people who do not know me) and Fierce(for my students)

12. The character for you yourself is
Ever-thinking. My brain never stop thinking.

13. On the contrary, the character you hate yourself is?
Get easily distracted.

14. The most ideal person you want to be is
I want Einstein's IQ
I want Daniel Craig's body
I want Jude Law's sexiness
I want Obama's eloquence
I want Stephen Hawking's imagination
I want Bill Gate's wealth
I want Mother Teresa's patience
I want George W. Bush's super-thick-face
I want MY OWN FEELINGS TOWARDS LIFE.

15. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about him/her?
Haha..that would be my Dad, Mom, Brothers, Sisters and friends.
My life would be NOTHING if I was born without them.

16. TEN people to tag
1.Peanut Jin
2.Lost- Noob
3.Hui Mei
4. LCK
5. Blue Ice
6. Rin
7. Yee How
8.Wen
9.Zhi Ling
10.Doc on da skateboard - ing

17. Who is #2 having a relationship with?
Nobody i guess

18. Is #3 a male or a female?
Female

19. If #7 and #10 got together, would that be a good thing?
One is a family guy, one is a brilliant girl, walau.... it would be a good thing leh

20. How about #5 and #8?
girl-girl mana boleh

21. What is #1 studying about?
1 is a high achiever back in school, now studying MEdicine.

22. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
Quite often. Most of them are forced to read LiveStation, by me:P

23. Is 4 single?
Quite complicated. Relationships plunged into uncertainty this afternoon.

24. Say something about #2.
2 has very good temper...he let me cubit him for years. A very very nice man overall, cheerful and is always able to share his joy with other people.

phew..... LoL

Xiaoming

Obama, HELP ME!

Obama promised the United States and its people freedom, equality, peace and prosperity.

And at the same time, he also vowed to shut down the Guantanamo Bay's prison;

but why am I still here?


H . E . L . P
M . E
O . U . T
Mr. President!

* I know this is not funny, and I mean it.*

When the EYES meet the HEART

Thanks to SS, I went to the cinema for the very first time here, and watched the movie titled " 7 Pounds". SS treated me a cup of DOME mocha drink and the ticket as well.

At first I thought "7 Pounds" is a comedy or some sort of movie related to how people go on diet and lose weight, but wait, it is the totally opposite.
Starred by Will Smith(my all time fav actor), this film is not quite a blockbuster compared to the other recently-screened movies, but it is such an emo one, to me.

I can be very emo sometimes, but surprisingly, this movie is SUPER SUPER emo. I was stunned even after walking out of the theater, amazed by how delicate the plot and settings of the movies are; most importantly, it's Will Smith's masterful body language that had successfully delivered the main ideas of the movie.


It is simply a fantastic movie. Meaningful, moving and touching.

7 Pounds begins with how Ben(Will Smith) was looking for good and decent people, who needed help to continue with their lives. He desperately tracking down Emily Posa, Ezra, and a few others who was having troubles with their own lives, so that to ensure that they deserve helps.

Emily needed a heart transplant, Ezra needed a pair of Eyes, and so, in the end, Ben committed suicide and donated his heart and eyes for them. Besides, Ben also donated part of his liver, and his bone marrow while he was alive, and helped a single-mother to settle into his house, before he finally kill himself to donate his organs for both Emily and Ezra.

The reason why he did that, is mainly because he was feeling guilty after causing a car crash that killed 7 persons, including his loved one, his wife.
Througout this 2 hour long movie, Ben is constantly testing and determining the people he is about to help, and also being tested at the same time as he stumbled upon Emily who he fell in love with, at last.

I highly recommend this movie to everyone of you here, I can assure that you will THINK and FEEL alot from 7 Pounds, by Will Smith, and it is probably going to change your mindset and attitude towards life.


Xiao Ming

爱惜。生命

* I would like to dedicate this posting to the war victims of Israel - Palestine fire exchange. God bless our world*

No people should be made victims for the sake of religion. No people should ever make religion as an excuse to victimize others. I hereby strongly condemn BOTH Hamas and Israeli government for their selfish actions to spark another never ending dispute and pain in the strip of Gaza. Treasure the food and water we consume, and a good night's sleep that we often forget to appreciate.

Lerkud! Lerkud!
卡利被父亲仓促的呼唤声叫醒后，
听到的第一个字。。。跑！
还在揉着惺忪的双眼，
他们早已逃出了那半砖屋，
在爸爸的怀抱中
和人群奔去了

一道似阳光般刺眼的焰火
划过了加萨的领空
接着便是轰炸的震动

爸爸曾经说过：
“只要你们还能过看得到炮火，

听得到惨叫，

还有感觉得到烈痛和害怕，

你们还是有得救的。”

卡利虽然害怕，
但是还是一声不发，
他在心里祷告，
希望睁开眼睛的时候，
他还能感觉到
父亲胸膛前
那频密的心跳

而不是
子弹和战车的咆哮

不知道已经几多个小时
的畏惧
还有耳边的母亲不断的哭泣

他感觉得到
父亲的脚步开始放缓
因该是累了
喘息声依然不断
泪和汗，几乎湿遍了那破洞的睡衣

当那害怕的小脸孔，
悄悄地偷瞄向
梦界外的地狱，

卡利发现到，
快要黎明了
还有
身边有好多好多

父母亲和孩子
甚至是单亲，或残缺的家人
和自己一样
依然没有放弃
朝向那几百米外的
红新月难民营

他偷偷的，
在战乱的烽火下
露出了那久违的 微笑
-------------------------

当人们在忙着争辩

谁对，

谁不对，

哪里是谁的圣地

什么才是人类的真正信仰

的时候，

最清纯，最受渴望的
却是被现实
迫压着的

生命。

小明

For Friends or Benefits?

Do you befriend others out of your own benefits, only?
Have you came across a situation whereby you make friend with a person because you know he/she has got what you want? And perhaps so, you even think that you can make use of him/her for your own good in the future?

It is sad that people nowadays are so realistic, demanding, and self-centered.

I have a few "friends" of that kind as well, but at least I'm not irritated because they did not cause me much trouble, and most importantly, I'm not like them.

People have been asking me to approach a certain group of people, mix with them, so that I can retrieve some benefits that they claimed, would make my life easier. Yes, I know it helps a lot to have friends giving you a helping hand when you're alone and in trouble, but, IS THAT the ONLY reason why we make friends?

Haiz... So scared I'd be like that one day.



Xiao Ming

Tsunami in Australia

Today spent a WHOLE afternoon in the city, and I witnessed a never-before-tsunami hitting the Australian coastline.


I am serious. It was really a tsunami.

It happened right after an airplane flew by my friend crashed into the Swan River.
If this thing happened in BM, then Tokun would have been destroyed by half of its original size.

No joking. 做人不可以乱乱放飞机。

感恩篇

(草于2008年12月8日）

经过通往淡文的新邦安八联邦大道，
我想起了前年的那位流动小贩
被人撞倒了，司机慢都没慢下来，踩了油门就走人。

停下来看看，翻覆的摩托车压着在呻吟的马来仔；
把他扶了起来，
只见满地爆裂的包装sirap，
零食，
还有十几片法式煎面包。

这时路边的摩托骑士都停下来，
拔刀相助，
有的帮忙捡起包装食物，
有的忙着把摩托推向路边，
有的还在安抚这吓呆了的那青年。

虽然只有几道皮外伤，
但是场面很狼狈，很凄凉

我从口袋掏出了仅剩的二十令吉，传递给他；

他仍然恍惚的眼神，似乎有话要和我说，
但始终那张发抖的嘴巴， 无法合拢，
我转身就走了。

我不是故意的，
而是我顶不住那种场面，
当时的气氛，
还有一些回忆，
让我很难受。

Abang, 你还好吧？


这意外不止令人心寒，
而且还提醒了我，
世上还有许许多多的穷人家
每一天在为三餐，
依靠劳力，
耗尽青春
赚取那连我们都不稀罕的微薄收入。

那种sirap mawar颜色水
那黄姜粉煎出来的面包，
你们都有吃过吗？

别说战乱国家的难民
更别说非洲的饥民

看看您的四周
就已经足以
让你发现到，
其实对上天埋怨太多，
也是一种罪过。

小明

Pondan Feeling

What is Feeling?

and what is Pondan?

Let's give them a rock.....


Here comes the story of a chinese boy
when he feels sucks he say "Damn you , ok?"
when he go to school people call him "Hey there! gay gay!"
when he fail his test, his momma cut him like cooking a stingray

Ugly girl chase me I say "you wanna get me yo ?"
I say "you gotta wait till i say so"
you tell me you wanna marry me coz you're old
but I say I'm not yet lomo

He wanna chase girl one day
He say " walau you're so cute" instead of " I Love You Babe"
The girl slapped him and turned away
Then only he realized that girls nowadays are no play play

Budak Cina got a big dream some day
He wanna become Malaysian's first spaceman
But who knows, Muzzafar told him, "No way, I'm the man"
"You thought the cockpit got so BIG punya space meh?"

Of course, he never give up anyway lor
Got time also go taman kap lui lor
At least got kesi kesi jogging got slim jor
When you ask him" Go taman what for?"
He say:" Exercise lor!"

When boy boy blog about his love story
friends say story too sad , must change already
when boy boy wrote in his blog " You PoRaaaaa lar Value Sammi !"
friends say he too rude and too racist

So, he asks himself, " what kind of feeling is this?"
Feel Shit Eat Shit and got shit, but why cannot say "shit!"?
Then if feel happy wanna say " I'm a dead meat?"
Then if feel sucky wanna say " walau, I'm so happy!"?

Mama say if got Sai must pang chut lai,
Cannot 3 days baru go toilet ki gek sai,
If Bak Jiu Zheng ki lai,
Must be you always Luan Luan lai!

Anyhow, Internet is a weird place to lepak-ing
write things cannot always write betul feeling
so if you ask me,
"what the F*** is this??"
then I'll tell you,


THIS IS PONDAN FEELING!




I think ppl dont get this too clearly:

(Definition of Pondan : Not Boy Not Girl, Not Man Not Woman, Not Aunty Not Uncle, Not 3 Not 4. Which means, it is UNUSUAL!!!!!!!!!)



xiaoming

沉默

（草于 12月11日2008年）

我失败后
总是沉默
安静的

看着还未 起飞
但已 折翼 的感情
想告诉你
我会很在意

不是因为被你瞧不起

而是我未曾告诉你
我，喜欢了你

但
因为无能为力
所以才选择放弃

我为何沉默

我的影子，为什么

只反映
被嫌弃的自己

却没有，
被接纳的结局

难道你是在等待
我对你坦率

“你是最棒的女孩，你最美丽！”？


我沉默
因为崎岖的情路
告诉我
要稍微让步于现实

才能倾听到
她对我的

怨气

反感


也许是时候
我来安静

来洗耳恭听

让我来思考

为何我只有一条大路
通往沉默的结局。

小明

Kepo Chi & My New Year Resolutions

The not-so-cow Cow i drew in Paint

Things happened every minute and second in our lives, whether you like it or not. 2008 had been quite a memorable year to me, but at the same time it is a bit distress to look back at it all the time since 1st of January. What's worse is that, time does not stop just because it is a brand new year for everyone to have a fresh start. Time and tide wait for no men.

I've set my own new year resolutions, and they're of No big goals or unreachable targets. I set realistic goals, or I shall say the most basic things that I should do.

1. Concentrate on my studies. Put full force in catching up lessons I've missed or forgotten.

2. Pass all papers, at least, a pass.

3. Sleep early.

4. Get rid my addiction towards MSN Messenger and internet. This is serious.

5. Exercise regularly. Even though I might not have enough time for that or I might be tired after uni lessons, I want to keep myself fit and alert all the time.

6. Put off weight > 15 KGs at least.

7. Pick up the local accent as soon as possible.

8. Always hold onto my principle "Can see but no touch".

9. Always be in a state of "high-motivation". Reduce my taste for melancholic elements.

10.Get a part time work and fit it in well into my schedule soon after my course starts.

11. Importing in an organ/keyboard into my room! This is a must!

I must do it I must do it I must do it, be yourself again dude!



ANOTHER ISSUE ON KEPO-CHI-ING

Being a Kepo Chi is not a bad thing. People can gossip and have fun talking about others personal problems. But it will cause A LOT of unnecessary misunderstanding and also problem just because of the "ke-Kepo-Chi-an" of someone.

Never intend to do things or make decisions for me. I call that kind of action "KePO".
When I say something is OVER, I really mean it. I do not wish to recall or being reminded of old stuffs over and over again. Yea, I'm that kind of people that get moody quite easily, but the LAST THING I would ever expect people to give me is sympathy. I dont need Sympathy from Anyone. I dont like being treated like a sicko or as someone looking for attention all the time. My thinking in some aspects might be a little bit immatured sometimes, but that doesnt mean that I can't handle myself well. As I said above, I'll be less sadist and become more of a happy go lucky man.

So, one thing for my friends,

You Can Kepo WITH ME, but NOT Kepo FOR ME. ok? DONT KEPO FOR ME! DONT DONT DONT!



Happy New Year to everyone! Let's celebrate 2009!


xiaoming

我的天空

这边夏日的蓝天
是片空荡的告白
没有云朵
只有无限的寂静
还有小时的画面
和期待

这里的微风
是阵中学时的闹钟响
把赖床的的脑袋
从无谓的幻想
和痴等里
拍了醒来

这儿的星空
是个无声的审讯
就连蟋蟀的叫声
也是围攻试的盘问
无奈的双手托着下巴
等待那讥讽的判词

这都是西澳
给我的见面礼

但
我的天空
依然有希望的白云

依旧保留着没实现的梦想

还有

少不了

好久以前，
为自己作出的判决

“我要爱你，直到永远”






小明

2.0.0.8 二-零-零-八

此稿草于12月31日2008年


日历已撕到最后一页了
但我的心情
早在去年的今天停顿着
充满抱负
一年了
我，干了什么？
　
－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－


事业
事业还不算什么。收存起来的钱，够我买一张单程机票，买些行李，几条二手寒衣，还有好几百块的外汇。 执教一年里，最值得的事，那短暂的授课经验；把在边沿徘徊的学生拉回正途，给活在无光世界的失明学生好好上了几堂课。还有，MSN 也无端端多处了百多个学生来。 真是的。

家庭
对不起爸妈，让你们为我操心了十几年。当我心情低落的时候，看到你们有心无力的眼神，我觉得很不应该。刚刚读了老妈子给我写的那封电邮。恭喜您终于会发送电邮了，但我却忍不住眼泪决堤了。谢谢你们一向来很坚强的陪伴我，祝福我，爱我。 哥哥弟弟们，也许是吵了一场又一场，但有时我知道自己错了，只不过我固执，我放不下面子向你们道歉，说声对不起。

感情
我学会了珍惜眼前的一切，学会了自我奖励；也在同一年里，我失去了信心，同时也忘记了怎么看开放下。这也导致我在这一方面，觉得自己受了很多委屈。我踏错了路线，因为我喜欢你，但没能告诉你。不知道，我会喜欢你，到何时，何日。。。

朋友
朋友聚了又散，各忙各的大学事务。从一个很渴望有朋友的家伙，到一个喜欢静静写部落格的独行侠，我 希望在星加坡，美国，英国，马来西亚 的朋友，以后有期再会！
年头被ＦＯＲＭ６　ＣＯＭＭＩＴＴＥＥ 叫回学校充数，　给新人讲话。但真想不到，却因此认识了几个９０年代先锋（１９９０年的“马仔”），　Angelia, Blue Ice, Dowie, Yf, LCY 还有久没重逢的Ｄｅｎｎｉｓ。要特别感谢你们，在我这一整年里，　整天被逼要听我讲心事，还有更加惨的是还强迫你们读肉麻的ＬＩＶＥＳＴＡＴＩＯＮ。搞不好你们变成我的辅导师。　哈！多谢！


Ｌｉｖｅ　Ｓｔａｔｉｏｎ　
有一些朋友都有来看看，但是发觉并不是很多人喜欢。
无论如何，
它不停的在记载，我人生中上演的片段
过去　　未来　　都有说不完的　　感觉
我觉得，其中我最满意的作品是傍 晚 的 秋 蚕，回家，Behind the Braille，风筝飞，低音提琴，下雨，字迹的迴响　还有最近的　外婆。　满意不是因为他们够麻，而我觉得，最能表达出自己说不出的一些感觉。

但恐怕，新一年不会允许我写下去。但只要有机会，我还是会尽量写下去的！！！！！　哈哈。


－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

信心在自家的土地上
一次次受到波折，打击。
我离开马来西亚出走了
那我能否够担保
明年的今天，
我不会再有同样的颓废感？
乐观点，应该可以瓜！

为２００８年做了这个大总结
愿我能把
遗憾
抛下这时代的列车

我不要再顾虑
不要再有萎靡不振的心灵

‘０９年，放马过来吧！



小明

MSN Messenger Drawing Competition 2008

Had a really nice drawing competition on MSN

Tools allowed : ONLY MSN drawing tools

Time: As long as you want

And the title of my artwork is " Malcolm In the Middle " !

Number of Contenders: Me and Dowie

Title of my artwork : Malcolm In The Middle

Total marks given :95% out of 100%

Opponent : Didnt draw, so I am the official winner of MSN Messenger Drawing Competition 2008!

WOOO HOOO!

xiaoMing

(thanks Dowie for letting me win! BLEK)

To Stalk, Or Not?

To remember something is freakingly easy

BUT

To forget something, especially someone special to you

you can never easily shed it away from your head.


I dont think she knows my LiveStation blog

and probably

she doesnt even know who I am

But the impact I received from her
was so strong.

She doesnt have good shape
She doesnt look so smart
She doesnt sound so sweet

BUT

She changed my point of view on me, myself.
She had practically led me to a new path and direction of my own thinking.


I know this sounds weird, but believe me, this feelings, to me, is very weird too.

I'm given a chance to start over a new life here
but honestly, can I really make it?
Can I just forget about her?



XiaoMing

Disclosure: This is not love-at-first-sight. This is not even a Love issue. It's about feelings. It's about miracle of life.

Merry what? Merrrrrrrrrry Christmas!

A very nice version of We Wish You a Merry Christmas, by Relient K!
And also, from LiveStation, wishing all of you a really fabulous one this year!

so we'll drive as fast as we can go
through the black night, black ice and all snow
till we see some street signs that we know
we're coming home

good tidings we bring
to you and your kin
good tidings for Christmas and a Happy New Year

we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year

we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year

And so when the words we sing are gone
i pray God's blessing continues on
We laugh and compliment this
Merry Christmas

good tidings we bring
to you and your kin
good tidings for Christmas and a Happy New Year

we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas, and a Happy new Year

we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year!




XiaoMing 2008 Christmas Eve

飞。跃

悄悄地划过
印度洋上的领空
我已在海拔几千尺
在审视
毫无动静的
云朵
和蓝天

这一回的空中巴士
只是个五个小时
的旅途
但它飞往的
并不只是西澳的
珀斯
而是
将由我自己
主宰
赢。输
的未来


7时15分

这时，
左边的机翼外
是渐渐深染
灰色的忧虑

不过
机身的右方外
却是正火烧，耀眼
的优美夕阳

这好比
人生总会有的
两个抉择

听着耳机的“日本恋人”，是空中最浪漫的时刻

独霸一排机位，是遥远的旅程， 最寂寞，空虚的一段路途


7时43分

铁鸟的左翼
已是朝向闪灼的
南极星追去了

但右翼才开始
淡去深橙色的热情

你说
人生里
拿起 和 放下
堕落 和 前进
也只不过

像是飞机
左右翼外的
一边儿暗
一边儿明

也只不过是
理念 和 视角
的一线之差？


小明

I would like to wish all of you here a Merry Christmas, and also a wonderful year ahead.

Sent a few presents to friends just before I left BM. Sorry if I missed you out, I was in a rush and not everyone received my cards this year. :(

Well, Christmas is all about Joy and Hope, right?
Hope you all enjoy the Christmas celebration this year!

I'm now in no mood to write much. Anyhow, getting a little bit overexcited since yesterday. Haha


A million thanks to the wishes and blessings from all of you guys and girls!


Good Bye, and Take Care!


Xiao Ming

The Last Supper

Counting days is not an easy thing to do.

You gotta withstand the boredom, although you have lots of things to do

You gotta battle the homesick feeling, although you've not even left you house.

You gotta get over the feeling of regret, although things from the past do not matter anymore.

You gotta manage pressures and the loneliness lie ahead, although at this moment you have family and friends accompanying you most of the time.

You gotta taste some tasteless foods meals after meals, although they're very awesome hawker foods that you used to like so much.

And these feelings made me feeling like,
I'm dining my last supper,
every meal and every day and night,
starting from the day I started counting my days.



Xiao Ming

A letter to my buddy

Ah mate.. Seeing you depart to oversea, again, makes me feel a little bit uneasy. When will we meet again? You might already become a father of 10 children the next time we could meet each other.... Or worse, I become a grandfather of a gigantic 100 people family already, including grandchildren and great grandchildren.

Sad huh? I don't have a word here to exactly express my feelings. It is weird.


Take care when you're away from home !


XiaoMing

Memoirs of another normal boy 4

有谁知道
现在大山脚的大街
从前是个被山上的山地人家，
挑着一担担的小石子，
从一个烂荒地
铺出来的繁华？

有谁知道
大山脚的火车站
是举国闻名,
最主要的火车必经之道？

有谁知道
大山脚的 武拉必
曾是在513事件
为受欺侮的华人
在投降之际
争回一口气的起源地之一？

有谁知道
大山脚曾经拥有
最大的信用卡伪造中心
最大的地下赌博集团
等？

有谁知道
大山脚巴东埔区国会议员
安华
曾是日新国中的教员？
还曾经为日新向政府争取到
那一点点的建校津贴？

有谁知道
大山脚的马章武莫（machang bubok)
是个客家新村？

有谁知道
大山脚的人们
对政府渴望的
不是 美丽的大路
不是 华而不实的政府建筑物
不是 永远不会塞不会臭的水沟
不是 “帮忙”华社筹款， 整天自夸服务第一的议员
不是 “帮忙”优秀生“上诉”奖学金的议员
不是 在南美园大操场上，提供晨运训练

而，大山脚人们的心中
希望
孩子们拥有公平竞争的机会
孩子们拥有安全的环境成长
孩子们拥有受保护的公民权
孩子们拥有会辩论，思考及行事能力的护守者

有谁知道
大山脚
一向来默默地为日新献出的
除了教师学生董事部
还有庇护着华教的
福德正神？

有谁知道
大山脚 TOKUN
那条山路的
花冈石阶梯
有了上千年的历史？

有谁知道
大山脚山上的电讯塔，

已从原本的三个，增加到四个了?

那四个电讯塔，这几天都没有亮灯了？

那在黑夜里照明的小红火，去了哪里？


有谁知道，
大山脚有个男孩
在倒数之前，已迷恋了
与大山脚的这一段感情

怕倒数之后，
还会舍不得
一个旅者，
和这片土地的回忆。





小明

几米，你和我

儿时的梦想，偏偏只能在梦里实现。。。

众多人的眼里，几米是个伟大的画家。许多人认为几米改变了亚洲人的思维模式，打破了传统式的漫画构架。

但对我来说，画家只是几米的副业。

在几米成千上万的单画里，每一幅都是如此的特别和新鲜；

特别在他的画中里隐含的信息，新鲜在他任何一张画里都有无限的想象空间。

为何夜晚给我无限的想象？星星和月亮，晚了，早点儿睡吧。

给一个牙牙学语的小孩儿，几米的画能启发年幼孩子的思考

给一个像我这样七老八老的人家，那彩色生动的画面可以间接的帮我表达，方块字无法形容的奥妙

他，是个真正的思想家
也是个，无声的哲学家

心中冰天雪地的时候，我们，遇上了彼此。。。

一望无际的大海和蓝空，确实有点安静，但是却很舒服。。

在游乐园里，迷失在Marry Go Round 的旋转里

小明