500 dollars and 50cents

I passed a 500 dollars test yesterday

then I treated myself a 50 cents Mc Donald Sundae Cone.
I love their Sundae Cone here coz it has very strong MILK taste, plus, it's cheap > 50cents

I was lucky to have met Tony, the examiner from City West center.
If not I would not have passed so easily.

And if I really failed yesterday, I would really really cry for the examiner to see, for my 500 dollars.

And If really failed, then like what fren said, it would be KNS. KNS!

Feel like cubit-ing him now. Tony is so cute :)

damn i must be out of my mind.

Sorry I'm over excited now

writing also out of order



WOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO~~~~~

Failure

Well, I have to admit one thing.

I often FAIL in my life. Many things.

I fail in school exams, I fail to entertain people, I fail to earn more money, I fail to remember small things in my life, I fail to fulfill other people's wishes, MOST OF THE TIME.

But tell you what, I AM NO 100% FAILURE.
I do succeed in some areas, but of course, just very few of them.
Success comes with a price, and very often, successes are VERY EXPENSIVE.

To me, hard work is only sap sap water. The "really" "hard" thing is mental suffer. When you expect something to happen, you have hope. When you have hope, you'll get disappointed easily.

To suffer psychologically is very bad. You get bored easily. You'll lose direction in your life. The worst thing, YOU WILL EVENTUALLY DOUBT YOURSELF.

When you doubt yourself, GAME OVER. Bye bye. You'll dive into a bottomless sea and never get to the surface anymore.

But I always believe in one thing when coping with serious challenges:


"Prepare for the worst, and work the best out of yourself."


This theory keeps me running until tonight. Tomorrow? Dont know.


Please let meeeeee PASSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

I DONT WANNA FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

不怕破财消灾， 只怕没钱破财。T.T

我好在容易心软，坏在不够狠！显！

烟花

(26th January of each year is the Australian Day, in which on that day, people will celebrate with the spectacular Lotterywest Skyworks along the Swan River, a river mouth that connect to the Indian Ocean. Viewing it from condominiums from afar is an even better option! :))

大自然已经熄掉了
夏天的烈阳
自己的呼吸
与开始放缓节奏的大地
疏远 和相对

孤雁划过天鹅河畔的上空
留下了一道裂痕
但心中的 伤口
却随着海风的狂吹
而淡化了许多

我在等什么？
瞭望台的远处
倘有夕阳的残骸
另一边就已经
有细小的火苗
很急凑的
一颗一颗往上升

从一个不起眼的火种
飞奔到了珀斯的顶端
轰 轰 轰
耀眼的七彩火花
又再新一年的第二十六天
重燃人类的寄托
和希望

有人趁此许愿
有人趁此祷告
有人载歌载舞
有人醉酒熏天

唯有我
凝视着一道道
似从天河留下的
银色水帘

一颗颗
犹如生活里的彩色
和酸甜苦辣
的烟花

告诉自己：
这就是生活
有时暗淡
有时明亮

只要硬着头皮
拼一拼
总有一天
会像中国制造的烟火一样
琔放

哪管你是颗小小火苗
或是频临熄灭的温度

再来一次吧
让我们来忘了过去

再为明天的自己
奋斗， 照明
就像颗 火种 和 烟花



小明

团圆饭

这里的春节是热的
一整天温温的风
还有烈爆的太阳
想吃火锅又不是
但，
又懒得自己做年菜


我想起了公公的厨艺
一个堂堂男子汉
入得厨房
出来的菜色
我永远不会忘记

我爱吃他亲手做的肉卷
他独特炮制的咖喱竹笋
清炒杂菜
还有不能没有的潮州面条

饭后堂兄弟姐妹
在一起玩抓迷藏
伯伯姑姑们在圆桌上
谈上正经文教
这
也只不过是段
不再有的热闹

多少年了
没有上过学的公公
还是像以往这样
手中握着厚厚的书
一遍又一遍的读过

但谁也万万想不到
也看不出
他， 老了
公公老了
谁有回乡拜年 谁没有
他竟然也认不出了


当然，
现在不知道是谁在下厨
吃起来的那种滋味
完全无法取代
那双历尽整一个世纪的 手
在莲花炉上调味，爆炒出来的
团圆饭菜。




p.s: Grandpa, I miss you, I love you :) wish you another healthy and happy year!

小明

Tagged....Again

Erm... Kena tagged by Angel pula. Searched back my last "tagged" posting, wow, it was ages ago, and same people tagging me back! LoL

lets start this loong looongg loooooooooooooooong tag post!

1. The last person you tagged is?
Lee Chee Theng

2. Your 5 impression of him/her?
Smart and outstanding, a person that read a lot, have weird taste for songs like me(some songs), cool, a person with very special characteristics (Big fan of Leeds and Guinness)

3. The most memorable thing that he/she had ever done for you?
Erm.. He tried to send me a movie from Sarawak through MSN, but I had to go offline halfway :(

4. The most memorable word he/she ever spoke to you?
" Were you the goal keeper at school?"

5. If he/she becomes your lover, you will…
Erm... That's a scary idea

6. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will…
I dont have enemies

7. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on…
He has to go Thailand and perform somesort of surgery.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, it is because
He killed me? AHAHA

9. The most desirable thing for him/her to do is
To go watch Leeds Utd games with Guinness on his hand. Maybe.

10. Overall impression towards him/her is
A very special guy.

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
Weird(people who do not know me) and Fierce(for my students)

12. The character for you yourself is
Ever-thinking. My brain never stop thinking.

13. On the contrary, the character you hate yourself is?
Get easily distracted.

14. The most ideal person you want to be is
I want Einstein's IQ
I want Daniel Craig's body
I want Jude Law's sexiness
I want Obama's eloquence
I want Stephen Hawking's imagination
I want Bill Gate's wealth
I want Mother Teresa's patience
I want George W. Bush's super-thick-face
I want MY OWN FEELINGS TOWARDS LIFE.

15. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about him/her?
Haha..that would be my Dad, Mom, Brothers, Sisters and friends.
My life would be NOTHING if I was born without them.

16. TEN people to tag
1.Peanut Jin
2.Lost- Noob
3.Hui Mei
4. LCK
5. Blue Ice
6. Rin
7. Yee How
8.Wen
9.Zhi Ling
10.Doc on da skateboard - ing

17. Who is #2 having a relationship with?
Nobody i guess

18. Is #3 a male or a female?
Female

19. If #7 and #10 got together, would that be a good thing?
One is a family guy, one is a brilliant girl, walau.... it would be a good thing leh

20. How about #5 and #8?
girl-girl mana boleh

21. What is #1 studying about?
1 is a high achiever back in school, now studying MEdicine.

22. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
Quite often. Most of them are forced to read LiveStation, by me:P

23. Is 4 single?
Quite complicated. Relationships plunged into uncertainty this afternoon.

24. Say something about #2.
2 has very good temper...he let me cubit him for years. A very very nice man overall, cheerful and is always able to share his joy with other people.

phew..... LoL

Xiaoming

Obama, HELP ME!

Obama promised the United States and its people freedom, equality, peace and prosperity.

And at the same time, he also vowed to shut down the Guantanamo Bay's prison;

but why am I still here?


H . E . L . P
M . E
O . U . T
Mr. President!

* I know this is not funny, and I mean it.*

When the EYES meet the HEART

Thanks to SS, I went to the cinema for the very first time here, and watched the movie titled " 7 Pounds". SS treated me a cup of DOME mocha drink and the ticket as well.

At first I thought "7 Pounds" is a comedy or some sort of movie related to how people go on diet and lose weight, but wait, it is the totally opposite.
Starred by Will Smith(my all time fav actor), this film is not quite a blockbuster compared to the other recently-screened movies, but it is such an emo one, to me.

I can be very emo sometimes, but surprisingly, this movie is SUPER SUPER emo. I was stunned even after walking out of the theater, amazed by how delicate the plot and settings of the movies are; most importantly, it's Will Smith's masterful body language that had successfully delivered the main ideas of the movie.


It is simply a fantastic movie. Meaningful, moving and touching.

7 Pounds begins with how Ben(Will Smith) was looking for good and decent people, who needed help to continue with their lives. He desperately tracking down Emily Posa, Ezra, and a few others who was having troubles with their own lives, so that to ensure that they deserve helps.

Emily needed a heart transplant, Ezra needed a pair of Eyes, and so, in the end, Ben committed suicide and donated his heart and eyes for them. Besides, Ben also donated part of his liver, and his bone marrow while he was alive, and helped a single-mother to settle into his house, before he finally kill himself to donate his organs for both Emily and Ezra.

The reason why he did that, is mainly because he was feeling guilty after causing a car crash that killed 7 persons, including his loved one, his wife.
Througout this 2 hour long movie, Ben is constantly testing and determining the people he is about to help, and also being tested at the same time as he stumbled upon Emily who he fell in love with, at last.

I highly recommend this movie to everyone of you here, I can assure that you will THINK and FEEL alot from 7 Pounds, by Will Smith, and it is probably going to change your mindset and attitude towards life.


Xiao Ming

爱惜。生命

* I would like to dedicate this posting to the war victims of Israel - Palestine fire exchange. God bless our world*

No people should be made victims for the sake of religion. No people should ever make religion as an excuse to victimize others. I hereby strongly condemn BOTH Hamas and Israeli government for their selfish actions to spark another never ending dispute and pain in the strip of Gaza. Treasure the food and water we consume, and a good night's sleep that we often forget to appreciate.

Lerkud! Lerkud!
卡利被父亲仓促的呼唤声叫醒后，
听到的第一个字。。。跑！
还在揉着惺忪的双眼，
他们早已逃出了那半砖屋，
在爸爸的怀抱中
和人群奔去了

一道似阳光般刺眼的焰火
划过了加萨的领空
接着便是轰炸的震动

爸爸曾经说过：
“只要你们还能过看得到炮火，

听得到惨叫，

还有感觉得到烈痛和害怕，

你们还是有得救的。”

卡利虽然害怕，
但是还是一声不发，
他在心里祷告，
希望睁开眼睛的时候，
他还能感觉到
父亲胸膛前
那频密的心跳

而不是
子弹和战车的咆哮

不知道已经几多个小时
的畏惧
还有耳边的母亲不断的哭泣

他感觉得到
父亲的脚步开始放缓
因该是累了
喘息声依然不断
泪和汗，几乎湿遍了那破洞的睡衣

当那害怕的小脸孔，
悄悄地偷瞄向
梦界外的地狱，

卡利发现到，
快要黎明了
还有
身边有好多好多

父母亲和孩子
甚至是单亲，或残缺的家人
和自己一样
依然没有放弃
朝向那几百米外的
红新月难民营

他偷偷的，
在战乱的烽火下
露出了那久违的 微笑
-------------------------

当人们在忙着争辩

谁对，

谁不对，

哪里是谁的圣地

什么才是人类的真正信仰

的时候，

最清纯，最受渴望的
却是被现实
迫压着的

生命。

小明

For Friends or Benefits?

Do you befriend others out of your own benefits, only?
Have you came across a situation whereby you make friend with a person because you know he/she has got what you want? And perhaps so, you even think that you can make use of him/her for your own good in the future?

It is sad that people nowadays are so realistic, demanding, and self-centered.

I have a few "friends" of that kind as well, but at least I'm not irritated because they did not cause me much trouble, and most importantly, I'm not like them.

People have been asking me to approach a certain group of people, mix with them, so that I can retrieve some benefits that they claimed, would make my life easier. Yes, I know it helps a lot to have friends giving you a helping hand when you're alone and in trouble, but, IS THAT the ONLY reason why we make friends?

Haiz... So scared I'd be like that one day.



Xiao Ming

Tsunami in Australia

Today spent a WHOLE afternoon in the city, and I witnessed a never-before-tsunami hitting the Australian coastline.


I am serious. It was really a tsunami.

It happened right after an airplane flew by my friend crashed into the Swan River.
If this thing happened in BM, then Tokun would have been destroyed by half of its original size.

No joking. 做人不可以乱乱放飞机。

感恩篇

(草于2008年12月8日）

经过通往淡文的新邦安八联邦大道，
我想起了前年的那位流动小贩
被人撞倒了，司机慢都没慢下来，踩了油门就走人。

停下来看看，翻覆的摩托车压着在呻吟的马来仔；
把他扶了起来，
只见满地爆裂的包装sirap，
零食，
还有十几片法式煎面包。

这时路边的摩托骑士都停下来，
拔刀相助，
有的帮忙捡起包装食物，
有的忙着把摩托推向路边，
有的还在安抚这吓呆了的那青年。

虽然只有几道皮外伤，
但是场面很狼狈，很凄凉

我从口袋掏出了仅剩的二十令吉，传递给他；

他仍然恍惚的眼神，似乎有话要和我说，
但始终那张发抖的嘴巴， 无法合拢，
我转身就走了。

我不是故意的，
而是我顶不住那种场面，
当时的气氛，
还有一些回忆，
让我很难受。

Abang, 你还好吧？


这意外不止令人心寒，
而且还提醒了我，
世上还有许许多多的穷人家
每一天在为三餐，
依靠劳力，
耗尽青春
赚取那连我们都不稀罕的微薄收入。

那种sirap mawar颜色水
那黄姜粉煎出来的面包，
你们都有吃过吗？

别说战乱国家的难民
更别说非洲的饥民

看看您的四周
就已经足以
让你发现到，
其实对上天埋怨太多，
也是一种罪过。

小明

Pondan Feeling

What is Feeling?

and what is Pondan?

Let's give them a rock.....


Here comes the story of a chinese boy
when he feels sucks he say "Damn you , ok?"
when he go to school people call him "Hey there! gay gay!"
when he fail his test, his momma cut him like cooking a stingray

Ugly girl chase me I say "you wanna get me yo ?"
I say "you gotta wait till i say so"
you tell me you wanna marry me coz you're old
but I say I'm not yet lomo

He wanna chase girl one day
He say " walau you're so cute" instead of " I Love You Babe"
The girl slapped him and turned away
Then only he realized that girls nowadays are no play play

Budak Cina got a big dream some day
He wanna become Malaysian's first spaceman
But who knows, Muzzafar told him, "No way, I'm the man"
"You thought the cockpit got so BIG punya space meh?"

Of course, he never give up anyway lor
Got time also go taman kap lui lor
At least got kesi kesi jogging got slim jor
When you ask him" Go taman what for?"
He say:" Exercise lor!"

When boy boy blog about his love story
friends say story too sad , must change already
when boy boy wrote in his blog " You PoRaaaaa lar Value Sammi !"
friends say he too rude and too racist

So, he asks himself, " what kind of feeling is this?"
Feel Shit Eat Shit and got shit, but why cannot say "shit!"?
Then if feel happy wanna say " I'm a dead meat?"
Then if feel sucky wanna say " walau, I'm so happy!"?

Mama say if got Sai must pang chut lai,
Cannot 3 days baru go toilet ki gek sai,
If Bak Jiu Zheng ki lai,
Must be you always Luan Luan lai!

Anyhow, Internet is a weird place to lepak-ing
write things cannot always write betul feeling
so if you ask me,
"what the F*** is this??"
then I'll tell you,


THIS IS PONDAN FEELING!




I think ppl dont get this too clearly:

(Definition of Pondan : Not Boy Not Girl, Not Man Not Woman, Not Aunty Not Uncle, Not 3 Not 4. Which means, it is UNUSUAL!!!!!!!!!)



xiaoming

沉默

（草于 12月11日2008年）

我失败后
总是沉默
安静的

看着还未 起飞
但已 折翼 的感情
想告诉你
我会很在意

不是因为被你瞧不起

而是我未曾告诉你
我，喜欢了你

但
因为无能为力
所以才选择放弃

我为何沉默

我的影子，为什么

只反映
被嫌弃的自己

却没有，
被接纳的结局

难道你是在等待
我对你坦率

“你是最棒的女孩，你最美丽！”？


我沉默
因为崎岖的情路
告诉我
要稍微让步于现实

才能倾听到
她对我的

怨气

反感


也许是时候
我来安静

来洗耳恭听

让我来思考

为何我只有一条大路
通往沉默的结局。

小明

Kepo Chi & My New Year Resolutions

The not-so-cow Cow i drew in Paint

Things happened every minute and second in our lives, whether you like it or not. 2008 had been quite a memorable year to me, but at the same time it is a bit distress to look back at it all the time since 1st of January. What's worse is that, time does not stop just because it is a brand new year for everyone to have a fresh start. Time and tide wait for no men.

I've set my own new year resolutions, and they're of No big goals or unreachable targets. I set realistic goals, or I shall say the most basic things that I should do.

1. Concentrate on my studies. Put full force in catching up lessons I've missed or forgotten.

2. Pass all papers, at least, a pass.

3. Sleep early.

4. Get rid my addiction towards MSN Messenger and internet. This is serious.

5. Exercise regularly. Even though I might not have enough time for that or I might be tired after uni lessons, I want to keep myself fit and alert all the time.

6. Put off weight > 15 KGs at least.

7. Pick up the local accent as soon as possible.

8. Always hold onto my principle "Can see but no touch".

9. Always be in a state of "high-motivation". Reduce my taste for melancholic elements.

10.Get a part time work and fit it in well into my schedule soon after my course starts.

11. Importing in an organ/keyboard into my room! This is a must!

I must do it I must do it I must do it, be yourself again dude!



ANOTHER ISSUE ON KEPO-CHI-ING

Being a Kepo Chi is not a bad thing. People can gossip and have fun talking about others personal problems. But it will cause A LOT of unnecessary misunderstanding and also problem just because of the "ke-Kepo-Chi-an" of someone.

Never intend to do things or make decisions for me. I call that kind of action "KePO".
When I say something is OVER, I really mean it. I do not wish to recall or being reminded of old stuffs over and over again. Yea, I'm that kind of people that get moody quite easily, but the LAST THING I would ever expect people to give me is sympathy. I dont need Sympathy from Anyone. I dont like being treated like a sicko or as someone looking for attention all the time. My thinking in some aspects might be a little bit immatured sometimes, but that doesnt mean that I can't handle myself well. As I said above, I'll be less sadist and become more of a happy go lucky man.

So, one thing for my friends,

You Can Kepo WITH ME, but NOT Kepo FOR ME. ok? DONT KEPO FOR ME! DONT DONT DONT!



Happy New Year to everyone! Let's celebrate 2009!


xiaoming

我的天空

这边夏日的蓝天
是片空荡的告白
没有云朵
只有无限的寂静
还有小时的画面
和期待

这里的微风
是阵中学时的闹钟响
把赖床的的脑袋
从无谓的幻想
和痴等里
拍了醒来

这儿的星空
是个无声的审讯
就连蟋蟀的叫声
也是围攻试的盘问
无奈的双手托着下巴
等待那讥讽的判词

这都是西澳
给我的见面礼

但
我的天空
依然有希望的白云

依旧保留着没实现的梦想

还有

少不了

好久以前，
为自己作出的判决

“我要爱你，直到永远”






小明

2.0.0.8 二-零-零-八

此稿草于12月31日2008年


日历已撕到最后一页了
但我的心情
早在去年的今天停顿着
充满抱负
一年了
我，干了什么？
　
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事业
事业还不算什么。收存起来的钱，够我买一张单程机票，买些行李，几条二手寒衣，还有好几百块的外汇。 执教一年里，最值得的事，那短暂的授课经验；把在边沿徘徊的学生拉回正途，给活在无光世界的失明学生好好上了几堂课。还有，MSN 也无端端多处了百多个学生来。 真是的。

家庭
对不起爸妈，让你们为我操心了十几年。当我心情低落的时候，看到你们有心无力的眼神，我觉得很不应该。刚刚读了老妈子给我写的那封电邮。恭喜您终于会发送电邮了，但我却忍不住眼泪决堤了。谢谢你们一向来很坚强的陪伴我，祝福我，爱我。 哥哥弟弟们，也许是吵了一场又一场，但有时我知道自己错了，只不过我固执，我放不下面子向你们道歉，说声对不起。

感情
我学会了珍惜眼前的一切，学会了自我奖励；也在同一年里，我失去了信心，同时也忘记了怎么看开放下。这也导致我在这一方面，觉得自己受了很多委屈。我踏错了路线，因为我喜欢你，但没能告诉你。不知道，我会喜欢你，到何时，何日。。。

朋友
朋友聚了又散，各忙各的大学事务。从一个很渴望有朋友的家伙，到一个喜欢静静写部落格的独行侠，我 希望在星加坡，美国，英国，马来西亚 的朋友，以后有期再会！
年头被ＦＯＲＭ６　ＣＯＭＭＩＴＴＥＥ 叫回学校充数，　给新人讲话。但真想不到，却因此认识了几个９０年代先锋（１９９０年的“马仔”），　Angelia, Blue Ice, Dowie, Yf, LCY 还有久没重逢的Ｄｅｎｎｉｓ。要特别感谢你们，在我这一整年里，　整天被逼要听我讲心事，还有更加惨的是还强迫你们读肉麻的ＬＩＶＥＳＴＡＴＩＯＮ。搞不好你们变成我的辅导师。　哈！多谢！


Ｌｉｖｅ　Ｓｔａｔｉｏｎ　
有一些朋友都有来看看，但是发觉并不是很多人喜欢。
无论如何，
它不停的在记载，我人生中上演的片段
过去　　未来　　都有说不完的　　感觉
我觉得，其中我最满意的作品是傍 晚 的 秋 蚕，回家，Behind the Braille，风筝飞，低音提琴，下雨，字迹的迴响　还有最近的　外婆。　满意不是因为他们够麻，而我觉得，最能表达出自己说不出的一些感觉。

但恐怕，新一年不会允许我写下去。但只要有机会，我还是会尽量写下去的！！！！！　哈哈。


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信心在自家的土地上
一次次受到波折，打击。
我离开马来西亚出走了
那我能否够担保
明年的今天，
我不会再有同样的颓废感？
乐观点，应该可以瓜！

为２００８年做了这个大总结
愿我能把
遗憾
抛下这时代的列车

我不要再顾虑
不要再有萎靡不振的心灵

‘０９年，放马过来吧！



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