有时候，我有感在椅子上，双手十指不停的轻弹着键盘，像是在电椅上为自己写份迟到的遗书。不，我并没有在这个时刻面对生死的抉择；而我可以感受到，等待一个不寻常期限的到来，的那种急躁的思维，那种火焰的情绪。
我人生的下一层次，正在缓缓流向那顺时的秒针，倒数着。我很好奇，我这彻夜不眠的身影，会不会健全的渡过那一夜。我也不知道，即将在沼泽里寻获的，会不会是个披着绿色森林的荒凉沙漠。
刚才在和宝点算着过去洋国家的一些必需品，我看着白纸上稠密的笔记；要带铅笔，便装，运动鞋，手提电脑，袜子，牙刷。。。。。。点算点算着，宝突然问道：
“寒衣呢？”
我停顿了一下。我心想，“寒衣？？”
天哪。。。我怎么会遗漏了这样？忘了带去，恐怕冬天肥油不够用，会被冻死的！
我深深的吸了一口沉重的气体。。。再轻轻的把已被温度化的它，呼出口腔来。
老实说，之前我怎么想也没想过会要在那边过冬。我还很天真，还以为是去那儿夏日旅行。
“还有，手套叻？” 宝又加上。
看来那儿的冬天应该是很冰冻的吧。。宝说就连15度都冷到象冰了。。更不用说两三度摄氏。
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx一去很可能三四年都可能回不来的。。。我知道这是个残酷的合同，是个现实的不平衡；但这终始会是我唯一的选择。是条不归路。我不断的抚慰自己，“我不能怕。。我不能逃。”
但说实在，我现在最需要的，还是一个可以依偎着的身躯，告诉我说，
“别担心，没事的！”
我承认。我，害怕了。
我并不害怕流浪他人的地盘；我只是抗拒离开我的家。我并不畏惧遇见新人事物；而我最不能失去的是家人朋友。
我害怕会忘了，我如何曾经深深的迷恋上了大山脚的这个一大片记忆。
将来的年月日里，在滔滔怒海里紧抱着那唯一的浮木，我想，我下一次回家的时候，会是个被遗忘的浪子；还是已经忘了“爱”的一个负心汉？
1222 倒数，还在进行着。
小明
12 comments:
i hereby wish you all the best! and everything is going to be all right!
try to settle down yourself as soon as possible since the choice you have now left one... no return so face it ya?
Have faith in you!
even no "han yi" minyak to penebat haba yang baik.
can take this opportunity to slim down! woot... one stone many many birds!
ya,wish u all da best!
do it,go for it,fight for it!!!
i belif dat u can do it very well!
jz like what u hv done for 20 years~haha!
so far so good?goin well with her?
hmm...telling her dat foreign language?
haha~anyway,wish u good luck!!!
ah keat: thanks! sure i'll face it with courage... i'll be tested ! See how much fat i'll lose there!LOL
黑色,并不忧郁.: telling her? telling who what? going well with who? who do u mean? yea i learned some foreign language from you ar, only for syok! :P btw, thanks for your encouragement!hopefully i can give my best shot there!
lolz..i wonder why my name inside?so rare ppl can wrote me in their blog..=='haha..just help u to figure it out la..since u go there will not be coming back in short term..
all the best!
eh...i wrote what really happened ma
if not half of this post will not be there ald !
by the way, when you mentioned "sweater", i was like.. oh no.....fogot that
haiz its going to be a long journey ahead!
tor che tor che!
all the best to u!
hahax..sometimes i quite jealous of those who can play music.. seeing ppl play is amazing, just like seeing Hamilton,Schumacher or Senna in a race car. 22nd go eh? i 19th november back liow..
my birth 1122.
u 1222 go out malaysia.
出国了要记住曾经有过我这个学生
一路顺风
不要忘了我 :")
dunt forget dictionary also ;)
“别担心，没事的！”
take care my fren...
chaiyih : thanks mate! Heard that ur bro was admitted to hospital..please send him my regards by the way, and hope he will get well soon...
martian : 19th? just a few days away! haha.... thanks by the way ;) dictionary? your idea? lol sure i'll bring one mini one.. luggage gonna be overweight!
wen: no worries...wont forget u girls and guys from CLB! :) I'll take care of myself de!
ngj : ah...glad that still have all the friends here encouraging me..... when can the Crazy 5 and I meet again together!??
人生的十字路口，抉择~~那永不停止的旅途，沿岸边，永远是那不起眼的等待~~
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