MSN Messenger Drawing Competition 2008

Had a really nice drawing competition on MSN

Tools allowed : ONLY MSN drawing tools

Time: As long as you want

And the title of my artwork is " Malcolm In the Middle " !

Number of Contenders: Me and Dowie

Title of my artwork : Malcolm In The Middle

Total marks given :95% out of 100%

Opponent : Didnt draw, so I am the official winner of MSN Messenger Drawing Competition 2008!

WOOO HOOO!

xiaoMing

(thanks Dowie for letting me win! BLEK)

To Stalk, Or Not?

To remember something is freakingly easy

BUT

To forget something, especially someone special to you

you can never easily shed it away from your head.


I dont think she knows my LiveStation blog

and probably

she doesnt even know who I am

But the impact I received from her
was so strong.

She doesnt have good shape
She doesnt look so smart
She doesnt sound so sweet

BUT

She changed my point of view on me, myself.
She had practically led me to a new path and direction of my own thinking.


I know this sounds weird, but believe me, this feelings, to me, is very weird too.

I'm given a chance to start over a new life here
but honestly, can I really make it?
Can I just forget about her?



XiaoMing

Disclosure: This is not love-at-first-sight. This is not even a Love issue. It's about feelings. It's about miracle of life.

Merry what? Merrrrrrrrrry Christmas!

A very nice version of We Wish You a Merry Christmas, by Relient K!
And also, from LiveStation, wishing all of you a really fabulous one this year!

so we'll drive as fast as we can go
through the black night, black ice and all snow
till we see some street signs that we know
we're coming home

good tidings we bring
to you and your kin
good tidings for Christmas and a Happy New Year

we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year

we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year

And so when the words we sing are gone
i pray God's blessing continues on
We laugh and compliment this
Merry Christmas

good tidings we bring
to you and your kin
good tidings for Christmas and a Happy New Year

we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas, and a Happy new Year

we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas
we wish you a Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year!




XiaoMing 2008 Christmas Eve

飞。跃

悄悄地划过
印度洋上的领空
我已在海拔几千尺
在审视
毫无动静的
云朵
和蓝天

这一回的空中巴士
只是个五个小时
的旅途
但它飞往的
并不只是西澳的
珀斯
而是
将由我自己
主宰
赢。输
的未来


7时15分

这时，
左边的机翼外
是渐渐深染
灰色的忧虑

不过
机身的右方外
却是正火烧，耀眼
的优美夕阳

这好比
人生总会有的
两个抉择

听着耳机的“日本恋人”，是空中最浪漫的时刻

独霸一排机位，是遥远的旅程， 最寂寞，空虚的一段路途


7时43分

铁鸟的左翼
已是朝向闪灼的
南极星追去了

但右翼才开始
淡去深橙色的热情

你说
人生里
拿起 和 放下
堕落 和 前进
也只不过

像是飞机
左右翼外的
一边儿暗
一边儿明

也只不过是
理念 和 视角
的一线之差？


小明

I would like to wish all of you here a Merry Christmas, and also a wonderful year ahead.

Sent a few presents to friends just before I left BM. Sorry if I missed you out, I was in a rush and not everyone received my cards this year. :(

Well, Christmas is all about Joy and Hope, right?
Hope you all enjoy the Christmas celebration this year!

I'm now in no mood to write much. Anyhow, getting a little bit overexcited since yesterday. Haha


A million thanks to the wishes and blessings from all of you guys and girls!


Good Bye, and Take Care!


Xiao Ming

The Last Supper

Counting days is not an easy thing to do.

You gotta withstand the boredom, although you have lots of things to do

You gotta battle the homesick feeling, although you've not even left you house.

You gotta get over the feeling of regret, although things from the past do not matter anymore.

You gotta manage pressures and the loneliness lie ahead, although at this moment you have family and friends accompanying you most of the time.

You gotta taste some tasteless foods meals after meals, although they're very awesome hawker foods that you used to like so much.

And these feelings made me feeling like,
I'm dining my last supper,
every meal and every day and night,
starting from the day I started counting my days.



Xiao Ming

A letter to my buddy

Ah mate.. Seeing you depart to oversea, again, makes me feel a little bit uneasy. When will we meet again? You might already become a father of 10 children the next time we could meet each other.... Or worse, I become a grandfather of a gigantic 100 people family already, including grandchildren and great grandchildren.

Sad huh? I don't have a word here to exactly express my feelings. It is weird.


Take care when you're away from home !


XiaoMing

Memoirs of another normal boy 4

有谁知道
现在大山脚的大街
从前是个被山上的山地人家，
挑着一担担的小石子，
从一个烂荒地
铺出来的繁华？

有谁知道
大山脚的火车站
是举国闻名,
最主要的火车必经之道？

有谁知道
大山脚的 武拉必
曾是在513事件
为受欺侮的华人
在投降之际
争回一口气的起源地之一？

有谁知道
大山脚曾经拥有
最大的信用卡伪造中心
最大的地下赌博集团
等？

有谁知道
大山脚巴东埔区国会议员
安华
曾是日新国中的教员？
还曾经为日新向政府争取到
那一点点的建校津贴？

有谁知道
大山脚的马章武莫（machang bubok)
是个客家新村？

有谁知道
大山脚的人们
对政府渴望的
不是 美丽的大路
不是 华而不实的政府建筑物
不是 永远不会塞不会臭的水沟
不是 “帮忙”华社筹款， 整天自夸服务第一的议员
不是 “帮忙”优秀生“上诉”奖学金的议员
不是 在南美园大操场上，提供晨运训练

而，大山脚人们的心中
希望
孩子们拥有公平竞争的机会
孩子们拥有安全的环境成长
孩子们拥有受保护的公民权
孩子们拥有会辩论，思考及行事能力的护守者

有谁知道
大山脚
一向来默默地为日新献出的
除了教师学生董事部
还有庇护着华教的
福德正神？

有谁知道
大山脚 TOKUN
那条山路的
花冈石阶梯
有了上千年的历史？

有谁知道
大山脚山上的电讯塔，

已从原本的三个，增加到四个了?

那四个电讯塔，这几天都没有亮灯了？

那在黑夜里照明的小红火，去了哪里？


有谁知道，
大山脚有个男孩
在倒数之前，已迷恋了
与大山脚的这一段感情

怕倒数之后，
还会舍不得
一个旅者，
和这片土地的回忆。





小明

几米，你和我

儿时的梦想，偏偏只能在梦里实现。。。

众多人的眼里，几米是个伟大的画家。许多人认为几米改变了亚洲人的思维模式，打破了传统式的漫画构架。

但对我来说，画家只是几米的副业。

在几米成千上万的单画里，每一幅都是如此的特别和新鲜；

特别在他的画中里隐含的信息，新鲜在他任何一张画里都有无限的想象空间。

为何夜晚给我无限的想象？星星和月亮，晚了，早点儿睡吧。

给一个牙牙学语的小孩儿，几米的画能启发年幼孩子的思考

给一个像我这样七老八老的人家，那彩色生动的画面可以间接的帮我表达，方块字无法形容的奥妙

他，是个真正的思想家
也是个，无声的哲学家

心中冰天雪地的时候，我们，遇上了彼此。。。

一望无际的大海和蓝空，确实有点安静，但是却很舒服。。

在游乐园里，迷失在Marry Go Round 的旋转里

小明

Memoirs of another normal boy 3

Yup. I admit that I held a girl's hand when I was in standard one.

To be precise,during the FIRST school Day of standard one.

While other parents were busy dragging their crying kids into the school in the first day, I was left outside the school and searched my way in to the school compound. Halfway, I met this girl, Koh. She was just like me, alone and heading to no where in the school. Did not remember exactly how we get to know each other so "fast", we held our hands, side by side, carrying our school bags and follow the crowd to the gathering spot.

My parents asked me how was my first day at school.

I told them I held a girls hand into our class room.

I remember how my mom reacted.


" AIYO! Cannot simply touch girls one you know!"


My first physical encounter with a girl during my first day of school,

shook the dinner table, hard,

with my dad choked by the rice in his mouth.

I think my dad and mom have already forgotten about that incident, but I'm sure it had somewhat traumatized their subconscious mind for a few years after that. That is why I was constantly being asked, or "investigated" of my "friendships" with females at school, until the end of my primary school life.

Spending six years of tears and laughter in SRJK (C) Jit Sin B is never a waste of time in my life. Although I am still wondering if I had really learned how to do + - x / when I was in primary school, each and every moment I fooled around the school has very profound impact in building my personal character afterward.

And also, I would like to thank all my SRJK (C) Jit Sin B teachers for their sacrifices and also for their "special" attention throughout my entire study life in that school.


Xiao Ming

(Disclosure: Koh and I were in the same class for a few years, and went into the same high school, no special relationships formed between two of us though. But we are still friends and, I still remember what happened to us in the first day of my school. LoL)

Memoirs of another normal boy 2

Received complaints from relatives recently
for not being able to communicate with them
using proper English

This reminded me of how the late Mdm Phan taught me English Language.
She caned me for not knowing what does "Goods" means.
I used to be so afraid of her
and her Xtra Large rattan cane.

However,
she died in a car accident 2 years after i graduated from primary school. I couldn't sleep for nights because of that, and I felt terribly sorry for making her angry in almost every English lesson.

And I remember
I was still struggling to pass my English paper in Form1
when Mrs Theshilla failed my tests for a few times, in one year.
Then only I knew, that my English sucks.

I was encouraged by my form two English teacher, Lau Lai Yong who gave me a beautiful 80marks for my term exam. I was so crazy for English till I tried memorizing my pocket dictionary. Then after this, Lee Lai Peng, also another good English teacher who helped me to pass my PMR English papers. I suspected Lau Lai Yong and Lee Lai Peng were mother-daughter teaching in SMJK Jit Sin. Haha.

My command of English has not improved much since then, till now.


I was really in a deep thought, again, yesterday, after being complained for my "multiple conviction" of Language crime.


Well, yeah... Gotta pick up another English novel soon.. LoL




Xiao Ming

Memoirs of another normal boy 1

So many things left behind
So many words I've missed
And thousands of seconds I've wasted alone

One thing I'll never forget
is how I used to let chances slipped away

The hardest part in life
is not
to endure failure and pain

but is
not having enough courage
to prosecute.


Same explanation for

The Pain
of not having something
is not as great as losing something precious
right from your control

Ah... don't you think thats true?


Xiao Ming

黑眼圈

不知道是几时开始
我又了深深的黑眼圈
虽然累到双眼都红了
四肢已开始不受脑袋控制
都还坚持不睡。

我总觉得，

还有很多事情没办完
我不可以浪费一刻一秒

有了黑眼圈，也要撑下去

毕竟已没多久
可以让我在这里拖拉
怠惰。。

Few days to go..

Can't believe today is already 9th December 2008.

Undefined Feelings Detected - Error Cannot be Fixed.
:S LoL

外婆

熟悉的路途

今天在摇晃的车上，大家都显得特别的安静。大概是全部人都睡着了吧。

在去年的九月，往南直下的车厢里，也是如此；大家都沉默不言，这一回并不是被遥远的旅途累坏了，而大家都在静静的，呆滞的压抑自己的心情。南北大道两旁的绿色柚木大树，一株接一株，一排排的从车镜外的边界划过，这时万物都似在向后狂奔去，企图把过去给追回来；但惟有那片蓝天的云朵，看起来懒洋洋的，缓缓地，反映停滞在时空的每一个小插曲。我虽视寂静为人生享受，但这样的死沉的宁谧开始把我的脖子越捏越紧；我领教到了脑子空白，缺氧的感觉。

爹开的车子在高速行驶时候，发出的噪音，早已被妈妈脸上的愁郁盖过。我在家门口接到这个恶讯，心中虽然很难受，但是还挺平静的收拾行李，把政府考试的时间表搁置在一旁，上了车子后就一直寻找着感觉。

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以前外婆有双小红鞋。是布制的，中国制造。鞋上镶满了五颜六色的小珠子，在耀眼的闪亮中有一对毛茸茸的小花球。自从舅母把这双小红鞋送给外婆后，老人家几乎不曾赤脚过；不管是上厕所，出街或是用餐，都是有它穿在脚上。当初啊，连舅母要为她洗澡的时候，外婆都还嚷着不要脱鞋，但最后见大家都不禁的笑起来的时候，她才有点不好意思地乖乖就范。

直到近一两年，在最后一次春节回去瓜拉比劳的时候，外婆睡着的双人床旁，还是摆着那一双小红鞋，但是像被光阴削弱的外婆这样，小红鞋又旧又脏；珠子也差不多已经脱光了。外婆似乎有知觉我在身旁，顿时醒了过来。她虽然已经无法行走；就连要在床上翻个身子都有困难，看见了我， 她双臂开始慢慢的往床的表面压下去。我愣住了，赶紧向前托着他已有点松脱的背脊，支撑着她，再缓缓地矫正外婆的位置，坐在床角上。望着那颈部支柱套掐着的颈项，身躯已暴瘦得不成形的外婆，我双手紧抱着她，问候："外婆，你还好吧?" 她似乎没有听到我对他说话，双脚不停随意摆动。
原来，她在努力的把小红鞋穿上。

妈妈走入了房门，和外婆笑谈了一下，一口流利的客话对她问道：

“ah ma, ngi ki tet ai zat fui zai mao?”
" 妈妈，你还记得这个肥子吗？"

外婆：“ki tet....ki tet.... ngi eh lai hao liang zai wor....hao tai zat....um hiao pui la..”
“记得。。。记得。。。你的儿子好英俊喔。。 好大只。。。不会肥啦。。”

妈妈又一脸笑盈盈的看着我，又问外婆 :

" ah ma, ngi kon ngai eh lai kho yi dang yi sang mao?"
" 妈妈，你看我这个儿子，能不能当个医生？”

这时外婆的脸色一变，认真起来了。妈妈只是开开玩笑的故意戏弄我而已，怎知，她，睁大双眼，很专心的凝视我的脸。看上看下， 最后满意的点点头说：

“tet”
“可以”

知道我不谙客话， 外婆继续用华语说：

“以后啊，你当了医生后，记得，要把外婆的病医好。。” “外婆老了，没用了，但是还是会等你做医生.."

我听了不懂要如何是好，便逞强的微笑，向外婆点点头。外婆的嘴角也弯了上来，露出没有假牙套的那张小嘴。

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另一次见到外婆，她已经安详的躺在棺木里。她睡着的颜容依旧是我最熟悉的脸孔；只不过不知为何，我那时已像个委屈的小男孩，

崩溃，绝望；

心灵喘息在泪海里。

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八个小时的路途已经把屁股给震个麻痹了，
进入了老屋，我轻轻的推开那扇木门。
床上是没人的，
但那双小红鞋，
依然像上次那样摆放在一旁。

这时坐在床边，
仿佛又听见外婆说：

"liang zai, 外婆会等你的！"




小明







（Livestation 云朵的照片下这一句 " Please wait for me there, promise I'll meet you someday"，就是源自我和外婆的约定。 Rest in peace， and I miss you.)

STPM

今天应该是大学先修班政府考试的最后一天。。。 刚巧回到学校宿舍整理去年遗留下来的书本和纸张。

今天也是我考完STPM后的整整一年后。翻着老师给我们的复印笔记，还有那一叠叠的数学草稿，真的有点奇怪，怎么一年前的我，能够做出这么多的东西来。。

把东西分门别类，物理放在一叠；数学另一叠。。。 能够给朋友的都收起来，不能的就把它们搬到屋外的旧报纸堆里。。这样一卖，应该可以拿回7-8块钱吧。。

一年已经过了。。我才来整理留下来的“烂摊子”。。。一年后了，我到底有做了些什么？



小明

对不起

今天和朋友写了一首歌，

我建议它名为“对不起”。

歌的内涵深深的表达出了我的内心的感受

但歌里的故事就和现实生活不太一样。

现在很期待能把那曲子录音好，

还要经过比赛后， 才可以把它上载到这里。

我现在已经很 Beh Tong 了！！！哈哈



小明

信任

在自己最真诚想为别人付出的时候，却被人质疑，那种感受超烂。super 烂。extreme superior unbelievably 烂。

要是别人怀疑我的诚意，我一点都不会在意。。。
换着是自己的家人或是自己的最爱开始不信任我的时候， 这是一种痛苦。

真是有点不敢相信，你们居然会在这个时候，说出这样伤人的话。。